I can not stand still

My body has been the last thing that I have been able to control in these last couple months. And now it is broken. (Monday I ran 12 miles. Tuesday I had a MRI of my knee. The tech said I had a micro tear in my PCL and a stress fracture in my femur. The doc said I didn't tear my PCL. Friday I went swimming. Pain is something that I am use to but this has been different. This is me not trying to need surgery. Trying desperately not to be competitive.) My body has always been a weak point in my relationship with God. I always just wanted god to heal my injured body so that I could be strong and competitive. So, once again, right before my race, I am injured and God is saying "Why won't you give me complete control of your life? You have learned to trust me with your future - even though you desperately try to know and control it. Let me be in control of your body. I know the allergies, illness, and injury are all things you try to manage, but you do not have to be a martyr over your health." For it is God that wounds and God that heals (Deuteronomy 32:39).
God you have my attention. Still my mind cries out what have I done Lord to deserve these things? I am thankful that I was able to run and train to the extent that I did. But I want to still compete in the half marathon without injury. What do you want of me?
I give up my control of work, school, education, relationships, travel, and body. Is there anything else that you demand of me? May I not appear arrogant or insincere. I am just upset and desperate. I know I should run to you with all my concerns instead of doing it all on my own, till I fail. I know that time with you is better than anything that I can find here. I know that you, Lord, are seated high above the heavens, see all, know all and yet hear my prayer. I know that you comfort those in need, that you rescue and set free the captured. You set the path before my feet that I may not stumble.
Give me wisdom, keep my mind pure. I do not want to be bitter or have regret. I so not want to waste my time on the planet. I want to live passionately and ridiculously. So God here I am asking for you to speak.
"I want you to rely on me for everything."
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