I'm Back!

Thank you for all the prayers, words of encouragement and good times!
My vacation started a bit shaky as I forgot my cap and gown in Eugene. Luckly, I was able to get in touch with my land lady and she was able to pass the ceremonial costume on to Nick's mother so that I could use it in Klamath. And equally wonderful, I think that was the only potentially serious oops I had all vacation.
I had a wonderful time celebrating with family and friends in Klamath and Bend. Then I traveled to Alaska with my friend Nathan and we met up with our mutual friend Bekah. She was a wonderful tour guide and I feel like we experienced a lot of Alaska. We went salmon fishing, flying, ran, biked, hiked, kayaked, went to a concert and baseball game and of course ate amazing food. It was a wonderful time. (I will be attach pictures later.)
When I got back to Oregon, I visited my family in Waldport for our semi-annual family reunion. It was also a good time had eating and visiting and hiking.
Now, back in Eugene I am completing the LIST: job hunting, bills, cleaning, drug test/ HR paper work.
Enjoy the sunshine!

Fast and Faster

This year has flown by, and here I am preparing to take my ARRT registry exam. I have been applying to jobs in Oregon, Washington, Washington DC and Alaska. Graduation is this coming weekend. Then there is my trip to Alaska with friends and a perspective job interview. So, if you think of me at any point this week. Pray. Please pray that I keep my wits about me, I speak eloquently, and that I enjoy the moment. Thank you.

I can not stand still

My body has been the last thing that I have been able to control in these last couple months. And now it is broken. (Monday I ran 12 miles. Tuesday I had a MRI of my knee. The tech said I had a micro tear in my PCL and a stress fracture in my femur. The doc said I didn't tear my PCL. Friday I went swimming. Pain is something that I am use to but this has been different. This is me not trying to need surgery. Trying desperately not to be competitive.) My body has always been a weak point in my relationship with God. I always just wanted god to heal my injured body so that I could be strong and competitive. So, once again, right before my race, I am injured and God is saying "Why won't you give me complete control of your life? You have learned to trust me with your future - even though you desperately try to know and control it. Let me be in control of your body. I know the allergies, illness, and injury are all things you try to manage, but you do not have to be a martyr over your health." For it is God that wounds and God that heals (Deuteronomy 32:39).
God you have my attention. Still my mind cries out what have I done Lord to deserve these things? I am thankful that I was able to run and train to the extent that I did. But I want to still compete in the half marathon without injury. What do you want of me?
I give up my control of work, school, education, relationships, travel, and body. Is there anything else that you demand of me? May I not appear arrogant or insincere. I am just upset and desperate. I know I should run to you with all my concerns instead of doing it all on my own, till I fail. I know that time with you is better than anything that I can find here. I know that you, Lord, are seated high above the heavens, see all, know all and yet hear my prayer. I know that you comfort those in need, that you rescue and set free the captured. You set the path before my feet that I may not stumble.
Give me wisdom, keep my mind pure. I do not want to be bitter or have regret. I so not want to waste my time on the planet. I want to live passionately and ridiculously. So God here I am asking for you to speak.
"I want you to rely on me for everything."
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Yesterday

I have been training now for a half marathon for three months. I feel prepared to race. all except for a nagging pain in my left knee and occasional numbness in my left lower leg. A preliminary MRI showed that I might have a stress fracture forming in my femur and a minor PCL tear. Today a doctor said that I didn't have a tear. Now, I am not sure what to believe. I know that it hurts more than normal, and I know I don't want to quit on my dream to race a half marathon. For now, I will take lots of acetaminophen and run shorter distances in hope that the pain will lessen. Pray that I truly am not injured and that God would protect my body.