The decisions you make today, shape who you will be tomorrow.
This quote and the the ensuing many "what if" moments in my past, have consumed my thoughts this last week. It is almost like I can see a double parallel with my current life, and the one I might have had if I had made different choices.
If I had chose to continue with nursing... would I be done with school, employed, practicing medicine on a mercy ship?
If I had said yes to more than a date... would I be engaged or married like so many of my friends?
If I had never taking the health occupations class... would I be pursuing art or considering the choice of pregnancy in the future?
If I had cared less about a marketable major... would I be finished with school in outdoor recreation or language or living on the mission field?
As it stands now, I look in the mirror and wonder. I know that I am thankful for the experiences I have had at OIT working with the outdoor program and the people I met there. I certainly enjoyed the learning about radiology and physiology. But the constant things, are what help me to not loose focus of the daily joys- being outdoors, a cup of hot tea, art (all kinds, but definitely music) and the constant faces/ conversations with true friends (thanks for all the randomness).
Yes, always it has been the relationships, adventures and conversations with friends, that have brought me the most joy. I love spending time with people, hearing their stories, sharing a meal, and being challenged to understand more. I guess in this my God has blessed me: that I have never been a place where I have not felt like I was missing these things that keep me full of joy. Thank you Lord that I can never be separated from your provision and love, no matter what my decision is, you will be my future and my joy.
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